I've been having reoccuring dreams in which I drink/get drunk, and when I wake up in the morning I'm really upset with myself because I think I've relapsed. I don't know if this is a good or bad sign.
So, yesterday was a fairly busy day. I called sick out of work so that I could make it to the DMV and to my lawyer without being too pressed for time.
I got to the DMV later than I would have liked, and wound up waiting about an hour and a half to see someone. I had brought all my paperwork to get a Non-Driver ID Card, since I would need it to get on the plane this Saturday. Unfortunately, where I live has some STUPID rule that unless you are turning in an expired card, they have to MAIL the ID card to you. I explained my situation to the person, and she said that if I had a printout of my flight itinerary, that would be another reason they could bypass mailing it to me and give me the ID card right then. This did not help me at the moment, however, since the only printer I have regular access to was at my job. I made plans with my boss today to leave work early tomorrow, so I could get things ready for my trip, and I'm crossing my fingers that either the same woman is working, or that whoever I wind up seeing tomorrow will provide me the same service. If not, I'm fucked.
I had a little bit of time before meeting my lawyer, so I decided instead of driving back to my apartment, I'd keep my mind off things by driving up to my parents house for a bit since they are a short drive to the lawyer. My sister and I got my mother WiiFit for Mother's Day, so I figured this would give me a chance to try it out. And I did, and it's AWESOME. Unfortunately, I am about to become a poor woman, so I will have to live vicariously through my mother until either my birthday or Christmas when I can cross my fingers someone will get it for me.
Meeting with the lawyer went well - she said that if I write down information about all the meetings I go to, start taking these alcohol education classes, and enroll in this Weekend Lockdown Intervention program (which I'm hoping she means is only for one weekend) and can probably avoid a 28 day rehab program and/or jail time. I'll also have to either lose my license for 90 days, or have the Interlock/Breathalyzer installed in my car for one year. I think I'll opt for the 90 days since you have to pay to have the Interlock installed, as well as for maintenance once a month. I already have to pay the lawyer $2500 before my trial date, which will probably be in around 2 months. I'm going to work with my parents and have them loan me some of the money, since there is no possible WAY I can afford that on my salary. Even with my parents assisting me, I'll still be living from paycheck to paycheck probably for the next year or so.
I started looking at places to get a part-time job, just so I don't drive myself crazy worrying that I won't be able to make rent, or pay for electricity. I got word today that I am receiving a small raise at my current job, but there's no way it will be enough.